© Chuck Duboff
They have all passed on. Suddenly there is a realization of the finality of life.
As a child we believe life will go on forever; the sun will shine, the snow will fall, the games will be played…forever.
A belief settles in that the expiry date is for others, that it can’t possibly happen to ones self.
Then, those who shaped our lives, who brought joy and sorrow, entertainment and happiness, pass away. As opposed to a feeling of sorrow, there is a new found reality which overtakes us…that yes indeed, life is finite. The smiles of family and friends are joyous, yet at the same time, we begin to realize that they will not last forever.
Waking up to blue skies, bright sunshine, birds singing, music playing…is a gift, for we do not know when we will be joining family, friends and those who entertained and gave us happiness in life, and have passed on.
In the headline for this little piece of writing, I listed many who gave so much meaning to my life; at 63 years old, I have come to an understanding that my time on this planet is getting shorter and shorter, and at some time in the nearer future, I will be, as my man Hamlet stated, mere food for worms.
It was the passing of Gregg Allman, of the Allman Brothers Band, which really spoke to me…said that it’s time to accept what is happening. It was early in the ’70’d when Gregg and Duane Allman formed a band and upon the release of the album Eat a Peach, I was hooked to a sound which resonated with me. Some 45 years later both Gregg and Duane are gone…and I realize how very little time I may have left.
A peacefulness has overtaken my life; a joy in watching the wonderful lives that my two great kids, Carly and Matthew, are living; happiness in watching Laine and Ben grow into such wonderful and happy people; a new found joy in watching baseball through a new perspective on life; a sense of gratification in writing each day; a sense of pride in the life I’ve lived and hope to live for many years to come.
These words truly speak to what I am now feeling: